There’s been someone on my mind on and off this past year. Through the ups and downs of this year my thoughts have gone back to my paternal Grandfather time and time again.
Raised in midwest of the United States a decade out from the turn of the century this man, like many of his time had similar afflictions to others. Although his faults and talents were diminished by emerging wars and the Great Depression he forged a pathway for his family paved by both sport and service. Perhaps it was because of these experiences that he turned inwards in the last two decades of his life. It was the man he decided to be that I grew to understand and love as a child.
The grandfather I knew trekked hundreds of miles to spend Thanksgiving with his eldest son and his family annually. The pride I felt as a five year old when he emerged from the crowd of family members in the hall of my elementary school was immeasurable. His tan cowboy hat, brown leather boots, and diamond willow cane made me beam with pride. My grandfather, the cowboy from Montana circa Missouri. Plucked from the skies as his airplane descended into the Northern Territory to visit for a week.
He was my first pen pal. He enclosed bits of spring time each year. Mailing leaves and petals, pussy willow buds, and kindness into those monthly letters. It was the days of long distance phone calls on weekends, and five hour flights to Alaska.
I felt seen and loved as a young Jewish child. He sent every card he could find, asked questions without judgement, and encouraged me from afar. He was front and center beaming with pride during my Bat Mitzvah. His shaky hand and video recording camera took in the scene in 1997 capturing my moment of entering the realm of adulthood. My commitment to my people, my culture, he embraced it with pride.
In these current days of turbulence and turmoil riddled by antisemitism, I often think of my touchstone. My grandfather’s love and support take on so much more meaning now, knowing that as a non-Jew he could show his commitment to family through his actions. I attribute much of my extension of love and tikkun olam to him. By extension of knowing I was supported, I could in turn do the same.
His birthday was December 25th. Every year I think of him and I wonder about what living in the last century felt like through each decade of change. Naturally I think of his life long partner my Grandmother Belva Pearl and I wonder if her work as an educator paved a similar pathway in my life. Her patience and calm amidst the chaos of raising six children helps me channel her qualities in the midst of raising our two children.
The tenacity and fortitude she had to help steer her family through two world wars and child rear are beyond me. What might I learn and apply from these abilities to survive and thrive. The strength and compassion it takes to persevere as a human on this planet is immense.
To know them was to love them. And love them I do. My holiday birthday Grandparents. Born the last of eleven grandchildren I am glad I met and knew them. Hopefully they know how much gratitude I hold for them today.
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