Cat like visions

I was a cat in a previous life. I am certain of it. I think that the essence of former lives can be carried over into another life and tangibly or metaphorically driven into our view. I have many other feelings about who I might have been before this life time as well, but they’ll lay in the banks of my mind for now.

                                                                                Why a cat?

I am quiet, but always thinking.
I am loyal yet conscientious.
I lay low, and pounce when I need to.
I take mental notes, and I consider upon them later.
I care not for what other’s may think of me, yet I listen still and cast aside the unnecessary commentary that does nothing for the speaker nor myself. 
I have no problem staring down a culprit and pinning them with a knowing look.
I know that when truth is sought, it will become free, and there is little that I need to concern myself with in the interim. 
I can curl up and nap anywhere.
I like to cuddle and snuggle up under a blanket of warm clothes.
I make piles  to organize myself.
I drag around bags of items to and fro with teaching, to exercise, to home. 
I leave my friends and family little presents of my time or trinkets to bring them joy. 
I am content and happy to sit upon a spot  and read, just simply be, write, or what have you, for hours on end. 
I fear not when I am left in the lurch because I know that my skills will see me through. 
I speak up when it is imperative, and yet I choose what I say and do wisely.
I am an introvert. 
My claws come out when necessary, but only when I feel that the life situation has left little else to draw upon. 
I believe in karma and cats have 9 lives.
I see the truth in other’s eyes and continue watching.
I believe my spirit animal is a panther. 

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I try to believe the best in people, always.  I have a friend who taught me this phrase. I did not have the right words for a long time to express that particular notion. But there it is now, and there it shall remain. However, I will always seek the truth in the humanity around me.

In my daily life, I have found that, as of late I can be bombarded with so many signals, messages, gestures, information, and pieces of communication that have very little to do with who I am, deep inside my heart of hearts.

I think it is essential to stop, quiet my mind, and really consider without all of the noise, “What am I seeking at this current moment in time? Am I believing the best of myself and those around me?”

Sometimes it is easier to busy ourselves with another person’s story. Another person’s trials and tribulations. Another person’s words. Another person’s vision. Another person’s thoughts. Another person’s actions. Another person’s feelings for this… or that… Tit for tat.

Anything but our own mind, our own story, our own hardships, our own fears, our own feelings, our own grief. I stop and ask myself though, “What have you done to be honest with yourself, as of late?  Do you face your fears head on?

Are you honest with yourself about how you feel, about yourself, about what reflections you leave with the actions you take?

These are the questions I stop and reflect upon when I feel the tendencies as a human to slip into habits that are easier to manipulate than forcing my brain muscle into what I need and want, versus what is easy.

Life is made up of little moments. Small choices, like pebbles we leave behind.

What are the shades of your pebbles you leave on this pathway in life? Are they a reflection of your aura or are they misconceptions of what your scattered visions are with interrupting signals from afar?

So right now, in this current moment, I am choosing to be like my cat. I am going to quiet my mind, remain loyal, and continue to seek truths of all kinds for myself in my cat -human state.

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Glimpses

Over the last few days I caught a few glimpses of all sides of the spectrum when it comes to humanity. The ups and the downs. Much like the ebb and flow of the tide.

Here are some of my glimpses…

While driving to work I saw this man walking his small Shih Tzu dog. I thought, “Oh that’s a sweet moment first thing in the morning, I miss our dog…,” and then as suddenly as the thought came it shifted.  I saw the man yank the leash towards him and yell at the dog, who startled began to run away. I almost slammed on my breaks and turned the car around. I had two thoughts.

One: That is not your pet Rachel and who knows the circumstance.

Two: You’re late to work and would it really be helpful or hinder yourself to question his decision?! I still do not feel splendid about the fact that I kept driving. That’s the truth of the matter though.

Today, a patient elderly couple were purchasing their medication at the drug store. I, standing in line with my sunglasses on peered at the husband as he sauntered over to a display rack of calendars. He smiled and pointed at one for himself. His wife walked over about one minute later and said, “Alright…” while folding her receipt neatly into her wallet. The husband said, “Wait,” and ever so gently pulled her shoulders towards the calendar in front of him. “Look,” he whispered, and then proceeded to read the title of the themed calendar aloud, “Senior Moments…” and then pointed to the photograph on the cover. He chuckled, she then laughed aloud and shook her head, which was followed with a rub on his arm. When I moved up in line I looked back at the calendar. Do you know what was on the cover? A photograph of the back of two elderly individuals, clothed, with one person’s hand on the buttocks of the other, pinching it.  Let the laughs ensue… you’re welcome. Needless to say the couple kept chuckling all the way towards the door.

My best friend has been out of town for a while.  I took care of her baby cat while she was away. Ok, he is not technically a baby, but you get the gist of my idea here. Every day, faithfully we would have an hour together around 5pm. Upon entry on my last visit, said kitty, promptly ran over to the door and declared fervently, “Meow, meow, meow, meow, meow, meow.”  Then he scurried over to his food bowl and I swear, he pointed.  He was probably trying to say, “You did not give me enough food!! Do you see this bowl? I moved it a foot away searching for any left overs! THAT’S how hungry I was!”  He paced around until I refilled the bowl, then settled into happy munch and nom nom time. Later while I graded papers on the couch he sat at the opposite end.  He stopped mid-thigh clean, looked at me square in the eyes and nodded. I promise you he did. He must be a genius.  If only cats had opposable thumbs, they would rule the world I tell you!

Lastly, while reading responses sent through google docs by my students with the prompt, “Write me a letter about yourself, tell me a joke, explain something about yourself to me through writing.”  I came upon a letter to the teacher, me, that the child had written that made me laugh aloud, during a meeting.  Said child wrote, “Dear Mrs. ___, I would just like to say that you are a wonderful teacher. Thank you for answering my questions, sometimes I have a lot of them, but can you blame me?  Sometimes I get frustrated and want to just burst, you have helped me with this. Thank you.” Why, you are welcome dear one.

I leave you with this dear world, smile more, laugh with others, and always believe that there are better moments coming your way.

Sparkle on.

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